It is time

I have come to a realization.  I spend a lot of time wading around in the sad places of my soul.  Yes, I have many sad places.  But, I have infinitely more (sometimes hidden) appreciative and joyful places.  I am a complex woman.  Childlike in nature, yet deeply rooted in a contemplative mindset where I dwell among the old beings of trees and rivers whose dusty and echoing conversations consist of lessons learned through an eternal life.  Deeply rooted yes, but also high reaching am I.  Soaring, seeking, finding, accepting.  Learning, doing, being, watching.

I think it is time for me to let go of the sadness and the anxiety that seem to be tied tightly by my side.  I think it is time to tap into my inherent wisdom and share the goodness of my being with those around me.  Every day, I am discovering more about who I am, and I think it's time to start living who I am instead of who I'm not.  I have spent enough time being who I'm not, and now I am ready to let go of that.  I feel nervous, and scared, and I feel like I can't let go of someone I've been for so many years.  That nervousness shows me that it is truly time.  Time to evolve!